Perbualan raw antara sakinah, salwa dan kakak safinaz

 [7/10, 22:52] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Sbb actually klau aku, aku sangatttt ok je jd cikgu PASTI 

Mcm kita bincang smlm, mendidik anak2 syurga jd cikgu yg luarbiasa cemerlang ( kepuasan utk diri sendiri) ni kan salah satu jambatan aku ke syurga?.

Hang nk apaaa lagiiii sakinahhh.

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Kita tekad jadi sahabat yg ALLAH redha dan sayang pada kita

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Sahabat yg dapat membantu di akhirat

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Hang kena tolong aku di akhirat nanti

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Sahabat yg memberi syafaat

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Hang bergelut dgn diri hang

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Not easy

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Mujahadah nafsi paling susah

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Ada hadis kan

[7/10, 23:18] Salwa Private 3: Nabi محمد Sollallahu ‘alaihi wasallam ada sebut

[7/10, 23:19] Salwa Private 3: Mujahadah melawan diri mmg besar

[7/10, 23:19] Salwa Private 3: أللهم صل وسلم على محمد

[7/10, 23:19] Salwa Private 3: Maybe masing2 masih berjuang

[7/10, 23:20] Salwa Private 3: Yg penting diri kita

[7/10, 23:20] Salwa Private 3: Kita tak nampak pergelutan dalam diri orang

[7/10, 23:20] Salwa Private 3: Kita nampak surface je

[7/10, 23:20] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Diri aku sendiri mmg every second

[7/10, 23:21] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Dok berfikir negative.. nk positivekan masa manic is easy peasy

[7/10, 23:21] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Bila time dia tgh mood down tu

[7/10, 23:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Mmg mujahadah dia, hmm berjaya solat di akhir waktu pun rasa 1 kejayaan.... Huhuhu... Moga Allah ampunkn dosa ku

[7/10, 23:23] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Mksudnya mcm mana ye tak nak melabel...

[7/10, 23:23] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Ooo mcm hal ckp td

[7/10, 23:23] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Just doa pd Allah

[7/10, 23:24] Salwa Private 3: 1) Aware

2) doa minta ALLAH tolong

3) move on

[7/10, 23:24] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Ni step dia

[7/10, 23:24] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Kann sbb setiap saat je setan bisik kn

[7/10, 23:24] Salwa Private 3: Doa minta ALLAH tolong

[7/10, 23:24] Salwa Private 3: Move on

[7/10, 23:24] Salwa Private 3: Camtu je

[7/10, 23:29] Salwa Private 3: Ni pelampung hang

[7/10, 23:29] Salwa Private 3: Focus on your goals

[7/10, 23:30] Salwa Private 3: Yayasan Al Humaira

[7/10, 23:30] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Fokus goalss

[7/10, 23:30] Salwa Private 3: Menara 25 tingkat kita tu sakinah

[7/10, 23:30] Salwa Private 3: 10 tingakat hang punya

[7/10, 23:30] Salwa Private 3: Atas sekali masjid

[7/10, 23:30] Salwa Private 3: Bawah shopping mall

[7/10, 23:30] Salwa Private 3: Aku sakit hati shopping mall letak surah kat basement

[7/10, 23:30] Salwa Private 3: Nak balas dendam

Shoppinng mall kat bawah sekali

Masjid kat atas

[7/10, 23:31] Salwa Private 3: Tu la

[7/10, 23:31] Salwa Private 3: Aku benci

[7/10, 23:31] Salwa Private 3: Surau sama level ngan tandas

[7/10, 23:31] Salwa Private 3: Sebab tu aku buat kelas mesti ajak solat kat atas

[7/10, 23:31] Salwa Private 3: Hang ada purpose yg hebat sakinah

[7/10, 23:33] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Sal, mmg kene perlu hati yg salimmm kan sejahtera sgt kn

[7/10, 23:33] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Terutama anak tak sah taraf ... Tapi aku ok je skrg... Takut ke hadapan nnti x tau

[7/10, 23:34] Salwa Private 3: Anak tak sah taraf ramai jadi anak soleh n orang berjasa

[7/10, 23:34] Salwa Private 3: Sangat ramai

[7/10, 23:34] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: MasyaAllah aku baru tau sal

[7/10, 23:34] Salwa Private 3: Sangat ramai

[7/10, 23:35] Salwa Private 3: Dia tetap kain putih

[7/10, 23:35] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Sbb aku tak tau n pandangan ragu2 mak aku jugak sbnrnya

[7/10, 23:35] Salwa Private 3: Orang yg membesarkan anak tak sah taraf sehingga jadi khalifah Allah yg baik

Darjatnya macam Maryam

[7/10, 23:35] Salwa Private 3: Aku pernah dengar ceramah

[7/10, 23:36] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Why

[7/10, 23:36] Salwa Private 3: Maryam takde suami

[7/10, 23:36] Salwa Private 3: Anak dikutuk orang

[7/10, 23:36] Salwa Private 3: Tapi dia sabar dan besarkan anaknya dgn baik

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Ya. After some long years, I also had the realization. No point menyalahkan kes kat KISAS & Londang ke, or any certain groups. Bipolar ni dah nak jadi, bukan sebab semua group2 ni semua pun.

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Kakak mula2 pun terbawa2 dgn Daddy conviction that all those things yg menyebabkan kamu tak sihat. Later only I realized.

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Kan.. it was meant for me.. asbab i cannot stand stress teruk2 ni... Belajar is a kind of stress teruk ( tapi gatai lagi nk blajaq and x serikkk)... Sbb saya sukaa hihi

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Sbb kadar org menerima dan serap stress x sama.. kan kakak?

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Yes, betul stress teruk will trigger it.

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Saya sangatlah lemah bab ni

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Org lain stress teruk giler

Saya stress belajar je pun 

Tu pun dh msuk spital byk kali

But its ok

Its what has been written for me

An i am ok with it

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Cuma tu la... Impian2 saya tu biar la kekal sbg impian.. i have dreams... Bukan angan2 mat jenin... But dreams that drives me forward...

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Your achievements are great.

With bipolar boleh dapat degree.

Able to work with own salary & buat business (not dependant on others for money)

Sambung Masters.

Prof Marhani pernah sebut, kamu case bipolar yg has extraordinary achievements. ya

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: You have good insight of your disease (cuma kena ingatkan pasal ubat je la 😅)

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Klau saya takde dreams /  impian, saya tak buat biz shaklee..

I know 

Saya buat shaklee at my own pace.

And my own leisure time .

I don't want to overstress and overwhelmed my self mcm tahun 2014 dulu.

Padahal kalau org lain, ok je ..tapi saya tak boleh 

Saya dh bljar dr kesilapan tu .

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Reporting 11 Julai 2022

1. Sleepiness 5/10

2. Manic ( to evaluate)

3. Happiness ( 4/10)

4. Talkativeness ( 8/10)

5. Kadar kemalasan (8/10)

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Semalam rasa sangat malas

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Sampai saya berbangga dgn diri sendiri dpt jadikan ruang tamu mcm semalam je punnnn .... hihihihi

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Bukan apa

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Celebrating small achievement

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Tu jee

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Sbb kadar kemalasan smlm rasa nk baring x mau buat apa

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Yes, ubat is my weakness

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Ada kawan saya dlm group support bipolar ckp

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Ubat is our jihad. Our jihad dalam melawan penyakit nu is taking medicine

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Emmmmm

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: I don't quite agree with her

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Tu kot sbb nya saya liat nk makan ubat sikit

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Sbb saya selalu rasa ubat is just a tool untuk sembuh

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Ya, it is a tool utk sihat. Tapi tak boleh stop, kena ada minimum maintainance dose bila dah sihat pun. Especially kalau dah byk kali relapse.

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Bukan ubat yg sembuhkan penyakit ni. 

Dan macam saya, penyakit ni akan jadi teman saya smpai mati

Cuma kene control.

And i understand, control with medicine

But, i don't know.

Persepsi saya pada ubatan terutama psy drugs ni kot

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Yg buat liat namatee tu😅🙏

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Yes, kena control with medicine.

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: For nor kakak tolong ler ingatkan saya

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Utk mkn ubat

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Because kalau tak

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Saya tak percaya dgn diri sendiri bab ni

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: 🙏🙏🙏

[7/11, 08:22] Sakinah SHAKLEE Bangi: Bab ubat ni